Hi there barbz, It's meeeeeeee, the Harajuku Barbie.
EXAMS! Yes we all hate them, yet they are so important for our results and whether we make the year or not :/ I really do hate them and I wish we could just stop doing them. Honestly I'd beat the person up who invented them Ö (Who wants to help!)
Anyways now you guys know why I haven't blogged in a while and to be honest I think I'm not going to blog in a while seen to the fact that I'll finish my exams 'till a week or so + afterwards I'm going on holiday to Morocco for 2 weeks so... I will see you guys back in January 2012 (:
Good luck with your exams guys (well if you have them -.-') <3
Yes, I'm serious we're all unique in our own way. It's about the way we walk the walk and talk the talk that makes us who we are. That makes us different and indeed... UNIQUE!
I'm happy with myself, 'cause even though people tell me I'm just a copier and a fake and a wannabe and so many other stuff that I really don't need to mention because all of you can just guess, I know I'm unique in my own special little way and that's what makes me truely happy! (:
As for you, one word of advice; STAY YOURSELF! Never change for others, not your friends or family or lover or aliens or strangers or animals or whatever (awh I'm being random here xD). Just, be true & be you; at least that's what the moxie girlz taught me ;)
As you all know that's the reason why I really love Nicki Minaj so much, she's just her crazy, cool, relaxed self! And to be honest with you guys, I wish I could be way more like her and just not care what others say or think ('cause what bothers me is that I really still care about what people say about me and it actually bugs me) ö
I mean look at that outfit and the wig, only she can pull that outfit off without looking absolutely ridiculous!
Anyways it's the end of the blog (oooooooooh noo *sad face sad face*) Don't worry though, there will be more so... BEWARE! ;)
Nicki's 'Dear old Nicki' lyrics quote:
And it's still fuck the media, they ridiculed you, never believed in ya! They just deaded you, left you in all black! But dear old Nicki, please call back.
Hi there barbz, It's meeeeeeee, the Harajuku Barbie.
I'm so sorry I haven't blogged for 2 days ö, especially after I promised myself that if I started a blog, I'd actually blog about something (whatever it might be). Seems like I can't keep up with that promise ): SHAME ON ME xD
Anyways; todays blog is going to be about fathers. Seen to the fact that I haven't seen mine since I was 3 years old my mother is also my father (yup I got an all in one package). So I will talk about my mother instead xD But first I will tell you guys why my mother had to fill in my father's spot too.
The reason I haven't seen my father since I was 3 is because he never cared to visit us after he and my mom divorced. Truth is, he was man enough to get my mom pregnant, but in the end he wasn't man enough to take care of us and care for his 2 daughters. I mean what real man doesn't talk to his daughter for almost 15 years? In my opinion that's not a man, that's not a father, that's a monster. But to be completely honest with you guys I never cared (it's like they say, 'you don't care about those who don't care about you'), I never thought of him once since my mom and I left him 15 years ago. We build up our own lives without him and when my little sister got born we were as happy as a normal family. But still, after all those years he found the guts to contact us and ask us (I must tell you he didn't contact us himself, but he sent our uncle) to talk to him, to forgive him for what he's done and to pretend like nothing's happened. To bad for him, to much has happened and I build up my life without him. Because; Dad, where were you when I lost my first tooth? Where were you when I went to primary school for the first and when teachers praised me because I was such a clever girl? Where were you when I went to highschool and was a straight A student? Where were you when I was in trouble, when I needed protection? And where were you when I needed you? That's right, you weren't here, mom was though and she taught me everything I needed to know, she protected me, fed me and gave me clothes to wear and a roof above my head. As for you mister, who went away for so many years without any contact with us and in the end you want our forgiveness? Sorry, but no can do! I don't hate you for it though, I just don't care what you've made out of your life, 'cause to be honest I got mine now and you chose yours, without us.
Therefor my blog's about you mom, because as you noticed you are my fatherfigure too and mom, won't you ever forget I love you for you and for what you've done for us. Because after everything that's happened you stood there and you did what you had to do for you're family and therefor I look up at you so much. I truely hope I grow up to be just like you, 'cause you are my queen! I'd carry you on my hands if I could just so you won't hurt your feet. I'd take a bullet for you, mother! You are my rolemodel and I wish one day I can repay you all the great things you've done for us! Because thanks to you we have so many oppertunities in life!
Nicki's 'fly' quote:
I wish today it will rain all day, maybe that will kind of make the pain go away. Trying to forgive you for abandoning me. Praying but I think I'm still an angel away, angel away yeah strange in a way.
Hi there barbz, It's meeeeeeee, the Harajuku Barbie.
Okay, so after my usual greeting I am supposed to say what the blog's about. Obviously you can't know what this blog is going to be about by only reading the title. So I'll tell you guys; todays blog is going to be about NOTHING! xD
Let me tell you why; I HAVE NO INSPIRATION AT ALL Ö
BUT.. (big but) If i do get any inspiration (God knows from where) I'll make sure you all know.
Now enjoy this song of Nicki I just found:
Oh oh and I almost forgot; Nicki's quote:
It's nickelodeon, I am the president where my podium? Why these girls salty, why they sodium? Is it because my flow slicker than petroleum?
Hi there barbz, It's meeeeeeee, the Harajuku Barbie.
Friends, the people who we are with the most (beside our family). The people who know us best and who love us for us (otherwise they wouldn't stay). The people we adore most and who adore us back (at least so we hope). YET... They can stab us in the back at any point! Does it hurt? OFCOURSE! Even more 'cause we don't expect it from them? DAMN RIGHT ABOUT THAT! Do we forgive? YES... Forget? NEVER!
There was this one girl who i knew for years. I called her my 'best friend' and so did she (at least, I think). We got along very well, and as years flew by and we didn't leave each others side we got addicted to one other. We passed the 'friendlevel' and became real close sisters. Yet sisters can be very mean at some point in your life, so somehow (after 6 years) we grew apart and as we moved on with our lives I realised I didn't actually need her to be 'me', I didn't need her to make new friends, to do fun stuff and most of all to be a very happy chicken!
I do believe that also in a relationship, your lover is your best friend. That doesn't mean that you only have to hang out with him/her and forget about your friends (and that's exactly what that friend of mine did after 5 years of friendship). I think the name 'best friend' that you give to your lover just means that you can be totally truthful to him/her, that you can tell him/her everything and not be afraid that they'll judge you for it.
In my opinion a lover and a best friend should help you, listen to your problems, know you and most important of all not judge you. Therefor you have to be a good best friend yourself to earn an even better best friend.
I'm thankful that I lost the people who weren't honest with me, who weren't actually my real friends and I'm greatful that I found my Rachael! She's my bestest best friend ever and I love her 'cause she understands and feels me! (: <3
Nicki's quote of the day:
When they're looking, you let me hide. Defend my honor, protect my pride. The good advice I always hated, but looking back, it made me greater! You always told me forget the haters!
Hi there barbz, It's meeeeeeee, the Harajuku Barbie.
So, this blog is going to be about the baddest bitches playing the game (; With 'baddest bitches' i obviously mean girls who run their own lives; like.. (uhu, you can already guess who I'm going to name) Onika Tanya Maraj, aka Nicki Minaj! :D But you also have Queen B, J Lo and last but not least Riri!
One by one they're all so special just for who they are, for what they stand for and obviously they are some bad bitches running their own careers and giving us a piece of their thinking through their songs and raps.
I love seeing them perform, all of them! They're all great artists and to be one you have to believe you are one, act like one and most of all be the baddest one doing it! I'm an artist myself (well, if I can call myself like that ofcourse), and I find it hard to do (if you get me). It's hard believing you are a good artist and acting like one! Let along being the baddest bitch in the game. Ö I do drama and theater and there have been so many times that I just let people run over me and let them tell me I'm not good enough and I never will be. And in the end it gets to you so much, you just start believing what others say about you! But that, my dear friends, is messed up (ofcourse 'cause we live in a messed up world), but letting others decide who you are will actually change you ): I've been there and saw it, lived it, and I can tell you; I did not like it ö But believe it or not listening to Nicki's songs and seeing what all these great women achieved I kind of got through it and started believing in myself!
Nicki's words:
I'm running this shit, I'm so exhausted. Batter up bitches, but approach with caution!
Here's the song for you guys, I hope you'll like it (:
Just yesterday I was wondering what's it like to be a celeberty (like all of us somewhere in our lives we wished we were one). But like I was saying; I was thinking about that when it hit me... If you are a celeberty your whole life revolves around one thing: your CAREER! Ö You say bye bye to your personal life, you say bye bye to your old friends (and sometimes even to your own family). Your agents choose what's best for you and just to make all of this short: you have NO life of your own left ):
For example Beyoncé; who wanted a baby for so long but they all thought her career (and she) weren't ready for it! I mean how can anyone possibly know what's best for one other? o.O And Nicki Minaj herself, my rolemodel, who had to abort her own child because they didn't think nor she, nor her career was ready for one. And in the end they regret it all... It's like Nicki said herself in her song 'Autobiography':
Please baby forgive me. Mommy was young, mommy was to busy trying to have fun. But now I pat myself on the back for sending you back, 'cause God knows I was better than that.
Here's the song for you guys, I hope you'll like it (:
CONCLUSION: I don't want to be a celeb no more, but then again... Look at how pretty they make you and the cute little outfits and you get to do what you love most n.n
